Feeling left out
Follows me like a winding
Mountain road
Curves around around
My childhood years
Into all the chapters
Of adulthood
That come after
It takes root
I feel sure
This discomfort of aloneness
The Thanksgiving Day my father
Leaves
Father’s place at Grandmother’s table
For Thanksgiving dinner to be served
At one o’clock sharp
Stays empty all through the meal
I have no memory of this Thanksgiving
Day
I am seven years old
Can only now
Imagine what the atmosphere
Feels like surrounding the
Family
Gathered for Thanksgiving dinner
This Thanksgiving Day
No one can know
No one can guess
My father is on a train
He is leaving my mother
Leaving me
The emptiness of feeling left out
Begins this Thanksgiving Day
With only Mother no father
In my home
A need to have what others have
The same size piece of chocolate
Cake
Is born
Now
A school of many years
Is passed
I abandon judgment to these
Years
Opening wide two doors
One to my mind
One to my heart
Nothing that happened
Owns a consequence
Everything evaporated
Into the ethers
Gone done
I am only the observer
And
I am free
Lovely!