In a memory of childhood
She leans over my bed
She lifts the blanket cover
And puts her hand between the sheets
Then
Flutters her fingers in the darkness
Where I sleep at the bottom
It is Wednesday
The nurse has half-day out
Nana comes to wake me from
My nap
Pulls up the window shades
Sees the place near my pillow
Where I tear the wallpaper
Off the wall
Says nothing
The peacocks
At the Lincoln Park Zoo
Wail
I cover my ears with my hands
To muffle the noise
She takes peanuts from a paper bag
Holds one in her fingers
Between the iron bars
And waits
The ducks come to snap the peanut
From her fingers
Like the cook jabs potatoes
With a fork for baking
She says I may have a peanut
To feed the ducks
Holds the paper bag open for me
But I am afraid to put my fingers through
The iron rails of the fence
She laughs
Says
Don’t be a goosie
They won’t bite
It is Wednesday afternoon
At the Lincoln Park Zoo
She wears a woolen suit
And ruffled blouse
Her gray hair under a feathered hat
I remember the feel of her cotton glove
In my hand
And the sound of her shoes
On the pavement
*Written 1982, from 2001’s Poet’s are the bravest.